Do whatever you want...Don't get caught !!
I am feeling all alone...no people to chat...no friends to share...hey you don't have to be sad .. its not their mistake...i mean there is not any kind of "mistake" term needed here...they are also in the cycle of this wired world...and this is the phase of life that no one wants...but it comes...thanks god it came to me early..now i don't need it till the end of my life...u know i am an atheist...but what to do everybody wants someone to talk.. so...let me be a schizophrenic...
now a lot to say..
saw Indian idol 5 ...first episode today...anu is always a headache but he is also a nice guy with his own way...who am i to judge a person but he is(or was) really a good music maker...i love "sandeshe aate hain" and "mere humsafar" ...everybody loved it ..that is the only reason why i love anu...because he is the make of such divine songs...sunidhi is nice...new... a girlish element needed for every show..girl is a must element in every indian idol whether she can sing or not...farah...sonali...wow...and talking about salim merchant he is not much seen person...well we all have heard about him but haven't saw him...lets see..
now talking about indian idol... i saw somewhere my self i that T.V. I mean its some kind of syndrome that when we see any movie or daily soaps we try to relate our life with it..see anything dhoom..kaho naa ...taare zameen par..kuchh kuchh hota hain...kahani ghar ghar ki...kyunki saans bhi kabhi bahu thi...we are emotional animals...we always think.. are yaar meri kahaani bhi darshil jaisi hain...college mein ladki ho to ishq vishq ki amrita jaisi ho...apna bhi koi maal ho..hamari dosti bhi itni gehri he...sameer aakash and sid jaisi...are yaar woh to rancho he apna...
i wrote these general sentences because i want to say that i am not a different person.. i am the person like anybody .. so what i saw the general power of daily human behavior in the Indian idol...i saw hard work...talent..shifarish...breaking hearts..weak family condition..weak physical condition.. heart of the father...confidence..over confidence ..everything...what i observe the most was an egoist girl talking that she want to be the next Indian idol..the miss India then an actress ...she was so confident that she can do everything...its so obvious that she failed horribly...and it was so obvious because many time i thought in my college that i wanted to get 36/36 and sometime i got 12...10...18...and sometime 2...i mean life is not about sunshine and rainbows...As my friend kushal says..only thinking is not 100% you have to execute it properly...and ya..don't try to be everything that you see because you are not Howard Hughes or Rabindranath Tagore...you are you!!!
Now I want to start a journey... a journey to shangri-la...and i need a vehicle for this ..of course i can also travel without vehicle but if i want to travel fast then i will have to have a vehicle...Job is my vehicle...right now i am trying to find a vehicle and i am really trying because i want this journey to start as early as possible...now you will ask me what is shangri-la ?? shangri-la is the happiest place on the earth...i know its a lost world but as our old books says its a place where everyone wants to be...for me it's Filmy World!!!...yeah that's my shangri-la....so as a gist i can say that i want to start my journey to my shangri-la and the place where i can be what i want to be...hope manzil jaldi aa jaye..aamin
and ya..perhaps i am not going to NID...because I am not feeling it like shangri-la..not decided now..but I am doing whatever I want...hope I Don't get caught !!
wake up..
with love,
Rahul R.
