A Poison Tree

I was angry with my friend;
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I waterd it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears:
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine.

And into my garden stole.
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning glad I see,
My foe outstretchd beneath the tree.

I Remember That Day…

Let me tell you something about my home. My home is full with some wonderful people. Mom, Dad, Chinki and me. It’s made from white marbles, beautifully crafted wooden furniture and love. And my room is in the lime-light. It’s in between the drawing room. It’s named “the glass room.”
It was the three months from now, I was in the fish zone in the water tank with some of my friends. Chinki came there with Dad and she stared me for a while and I made her smile. It was the moment. I became the part of the family.
I was happy. I loved them a lot. They loved me a lot. Life was going on the smooth way. But one day….
I remember that day; it was the chinki’s birthday. Everybody was very happy. They organized a party on that day. Firstly there was a celebration of the cake. All sang the Happy Birthday song. All ate the cake. Then they started the dance party. All the people were lost in the music. I was also enjoying by watching them dancing. After some time they started the rock music and did the light low. The environment was dizzy Chinki and her friends were dancing like anything…and…..
Somebody gave the push unknowingly to my “glass room” and it fell down from the Table. All of sudden I was not able to breathe normally. My glass room was totally broken and I was out of the water and nobody knew it because of low light and loud music. But one piece of glass was near chinki’s leg, and she kept her leg on the piece of the glass while dancing and she shouted. Then the music stopped, somebody started the main light. And all of them were shocked by watching the scene. Everybody was searching me. Suddenly mom saw me under the table. She rushed in the kitchen and came back with the glass of the water she kept me in that. Then they treated chinki’s leg. All the people were shocked by the accident and they called the party off.
The day after the accident they bought a new “glass room” for me. With some new toys and some new rocks. On that day chinki was at home for the whole day because of her broken leg. She kept watching me and smiled the whole day. She is fine now. And again we are back to regular life.



Wake up,

With love,
Rahul R.

May Be...Definately

LET'S BORN AGIAN



Hi....

Something I want to see...

Something I want to say...

Something I want to hear...

Something I want to feel...

Something...

Something...

Something...

what is that something??

well I don't know...really ??

it may be a good movie...it may be some time to be with some good friends...it may be the joy of reading Ogilvy...it may be some vivid spiritual aura that I am finding in some mysterious place...may be feel of fear...may be advertising....may be some new business plans...may be reading about adland rock stars...may be to see day dreams...may be to think like a dog...may be to think about bag-packing...may be to drive a bike without a thought of where I am going...may be to worry about success and money...

Ahh clearly Its my life...

In one word...

Uncertainty..

may be

may be

but is it enjoyable??

what the hell??

no boss

NO

so

so what??

Fuck...

yuck...

luck...

hmmm...don't know

so what I am doing??

Waiting for Godot???

yeah...

everyone needs a nudge??

yeah...

So...its damn clear...want some huge spark...lets hope that its not too far..

lets dream to be re bounced...again

lets love..again

lets read...again

lets see...again

lets wake up...again



Wake up...

With love,
Rahul R.

NID,MICA & mE

If you don't know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else....


hello people...

I love life .. i really do..its like a book...like a movie u r never ever gonna know whats going to be happen...hey hey hey...wait here...This is my life .. my movie ..my book ...I want to be it like my way...yes it should be the way I want...I don't need anybody to shape my life because it must be the way I want...

Now I wanna say you something...listen...i have dropped NID call yeah...I know..ppl who knows me may be get worried because its kind-a weird right?? yes its weird but it was not that I want I just cannot take it and go there because I don't have anywhere to go...I don't want my life just at that way...

ppl are really helpful...they are constantly pinging me that this is the mistake that I have ever made...but but but this is just not the way of Shangri-la ppl...This is the short cut for Shangri-la and and and I don't want short cuts..I am living on this earth because I have to finish my journey towards Shangri-la..and I want this journey the way I want ...no excuses no influences...I want to finish this as the way I am..

Now If I was at NID I probably keep looking in my head...where I am going...where I am going...no I can not make it happen...because I wanna go somewhere else..hey but as I said...My way...I could have done there what I am doing here but firstly I wanna be independent I don't wanna be burden on my family...you know what when something is wrongaly going to happen...it feels inside your heart and keep hammering for many days...when I was at NID I constantly felt that..No this is not the place where you wanna be no this is not MICA...no you cannot just escape from yourself because you din't work hard...just go to the world and work hard and be where-ever you wanna be...okay???

uff...so much explanation na?? much enough...I am going back to that life ...life for MICA...MIIIIIIIIIIICCCCCCCCCCCCAAAAAAAAAAAAA...I am coming....

Wake Up...

With Love...
Rahul R.

#2 People and Films and Daily soaps and Me !!!

Do whatever you want...Don't get caught !!

I am feeling all alone...no people to chat...no friends to share...hey you don't have to be sad .. its not their mistake...i mean there is not any kind of "mistake" term needed here...they are also in the cycle of this wired world...and this is the phase of life that no one wants...but it comes...thanks god it came to me early..now i don't need it till the end of my life...u know i am an atheist...but what to do everybody wants someone to talk.. so...let me be a schizophrenic...


now a lot to say..

saw Indian idol 5 ...first episode today...anu is always a headache but he is also a nice guy with his own way...who am i to judge a person but he is(or was) really a good music maker...i love "sandeshe aate hain" and "mere humsafar" ...everybody loved it ..that is the only reason why i love anu...because he is the make of such divine songs...sunidhi is nice...new... a girlish element needed for every show..girl is a must element in every indian idol whether she can sing or not...farah...sonali...wow...and talking about salim merchant he is not much seen person...well we all have heard about him but haven't saw him...lets see..

now talking about indian idol... i saw somewhere my self i that T.V. I mean its some kind of syndrome that when we see any movie or daily soaps we try to relate our life with it..see anything dhoom..kaho naa ...taare zameen par..kuchh kuchh hota hain...kahani ghar ghar ki...kyunki saans bhi kabhi bahu thi...we are emotional animals...we always think.. are yaar meri kahaani bhi darshil jaisi hain...college mein ladki ho to ishq vishq ki amrita jaisi ho...apna bhi koi maal ho..hamari dosti bhi itni gehri he...sameer aakash and sid jaisi...are yaar woh to rancho he apna...

i wrote these general sentences because i want to say that i am not a different person.. i am the person like anybody .. so what i saw the general power of daily human behavior in the Indian idol...i saw hard work...talent..shifarish...breaking hearts..weak family condition..weak physical condition.. heart of the father...confidence..over confidence ..everything...what i observe the most was an egoist girl talking that she want to be the next Indian idol..the miss India then an actress ...she was so confident that she can do everything...its so obvious that she failed horribly...and it was so obvious because many time i thought in my college that i wanted to get 36/36 and sometime i got 12...10...18...and sometime 2...i mean life is not about sunshine and rainbows...As my friend kushal says..only thinking is not 100% you have to execute it properly...and ya..don't try to be everything that you see because you are not Howard Hughes or Rabindranath Tagore...you are you!!!

Now I want to start a journey... a journey to shangri-la...and i need a vehicle for this ..of course i can also travel without vehicle but if i want to travel fast then i will have to have a vehicle...Job is my vehicle...right now i am trying to find a vehicle and i am really trying because i want this journey to start as early as possible...now you will ask me what is shangri-la ?? shangri-la is the happiest place on the earth...i know its a lost world but as our old books says its a place where everyone wants to be...for me it's Filmy World!!!...yeah that's my shangri-la....so as a gist i can say that i want to start my journey to my shangri-la and the place where i can be what i want to be...hope manzil jaldi aa jaye..aamin

and ya..perhaps i am not going to NID...because I am not feeling it like shangri-la..not decided now..but I am doing whatever I want...hope I Don't get caught !!

wake up..

with love,
Rahul R.

#1 peopLe and depenDency

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"


World ...world ...world...

Tora...Tora...Tora...

People...People are selfish illusionists...they think they have all the control...may be they have right now...But I don't know why don't they understand...Situation may be bitter today but it won't be the same the whole life...what we have gain till now why don't we think that we can lose it in the short span...if we became selfish for a while...and why don't we think that our situation is like a dog running after the car...he doesn't know how to catch it?? and if he catches it..he doesn't know what to do with it!!!!

Now something that we have to think ....

why should we think that case is always ideal if it is ours???

why we are taking decision which is hybrid I mean influenced by others???

why altruism is wounded by selfishness???

May be its our fault ...we thought that we can get success without hard work... May be we are too much depended...may be we thought that world is full of sunshine and stars...we couldn't have any hurdles on the path of life....

May be ...

Whatever....it was.. it was the past ...why should we look at the past?? why don't we think about future?? don't we know that if we want success we must have vision?? yes, yes, we do...Then why aren't we trying?? are we still influenced?? are we still depended?? May be ...

Now think...Situation will be the same if we don't act??
Certainly not...it will be worse than today...It cannot be better...thats for sure...
So Give up your dependency...I mean give up...let people do what ever they want to do...and do whatever you want to do...so that after some year you don't have to say ..you are toady because of..him her them...whatever....remember always winners stand alone..and they should because winners aren't depended...


Wake up...


With love..
Rahul R.